Passion
I think of late my posts have become so cryptic such that no one but myself can comprehend the posts... not that i expect many or even anyone to be keeping up to date on this blog... but that's another matter...
Anyway, it's probably time to be less cryptic and explain matters that perhaps those who come across my blog may be encouraged and exhorted to pursue Jesus. That, then would be the success of my blog for it is for that reason solely that I blog. Praise be to God. =)
Alright. On to the substance of this post.
Passion.
What is passion? I used to view passion as that one consuming fire that governs a person's life, thoughts, words and deeds. It is that one thing that they spend their every waking moment on, over-coming all obstacles with a singular pursuit.
Looking at my life and given that view, I had always maintained that I was a man with no passion. There is nothing that consumes me. I enjoy drawing but I don't draw much. I love the bass but I don't practice much. I like writing novels but I've not completed one. My interests are many but I pursue them only cursorily. The jack of all trades and master of none aptly describes me. Whatever fire and interests I have tend to fizzle after 3 minutes. Sometimes, I do wish that I can be like those with an all consuming passion for something, but alas, I am still who I am.
Recently, I went for a mission trip and have been richly blessed beyond my wildest imagination through it. I know that though we always go on mission trips to serve and bless the people, the Lord always seem to bless us more in return, so I was expecting to be blessed. However, how the Lord blessed me through this trip was totally through the roof! I am humbled and absolutely grateful. There is so much to share but for the purpose of this post, I shall limit to only one blessing. The rest may come in later posts.
And what would that one blessing be? Need I say more? Passion. Yes, the one thing which I thought I lacked and wanted. The Lord opened my eyes to see that I do have it. An all-consuming passion for His Person, for His glory, for His purpose. It truly consumes me.
I questioned repeatedly in the past that if I have such a passion, why then does it not seem to be sustained? It should be 24/7 and not ebbing up and down like a bouy at sea. Through this trip, the Lord opened my eyes to see that the passion for Him is there in the midst of all the ups and downs. Sure the 24/7 passion is wonderful and excellent, and cannot be mistaken for anything but the passion it is, yet, the "bouy at sea" passion can also be (thought not always) a passion, for if in the troughs, the heart still longs for the all-consuming fiery passion that manifests in the crests, is that not proof that the desire for passion is but the passion itself?
I thirst for God, I hunger for God, I yearn for God, yet I feel and think and know that I don't thirst and hunger and yearn for God enough as I should, but I want to! I thirst to thirst for God, I hunger to hunger for God, I yearn to yearn for God! The fire is there and it hungers for more. That is passion! And I do burn with it. O how I desire to be fully sold out for Jesus! No holds barred, no holding back. One life to live for His one glory!
This is the passion that burns within, and though it may not manifest 24/7 externally, the desire to desire more of the desire is clear proof that the passion burns brightly within and is continually transforming me and manifesting itself. It is a journey, an exciting one and I am very much work in progress.
I thirt to thirst for more of my God, I hunger to hunger for more of my God, I yearn to yearn for more of my God. To be filled and satisfied and yet never fully filled and never fully satisfied, always desiring more! What a joy, what a privilege. This is the life to live! =)
And for those who ask where does this passion come from or how it can be obtained or increased, there is only one answer. God. God is the giver of the passion for Himself. There is no other source or other way, for by Him, through Him and in Him were all things created (refer to Colossians 1:16), and that includes the passion for Himself.
Praise the Lord! =)
Anyway, it's probably time to be less cryptic and explain matters that perhaps those who come across my blog may be encouraged and exhorted to pursue Jesus. That, then would be the success of my blog for it is for that reason solely that I blog. Praise be to God. =)
Alright. On to the substance of this post.
Passion.
What is passion? I used to view passion as that one consuming fire that governs a person's life, thoughts, words and deeds. It is that one thing that they spend their every waking moment on, over-coming all obstacles with a singular pursuit.
Looking at my life and given that view, I had always maintained that I was a man with no passion. There is nothing that consumes me. I enjoy drawing but I don't draw much. I love the bass but I don't practice much. I like writing novels but I've not completed one. My interests are many but I pursue them only cursorily. The jack of all trades and master of none aptly describes me. Whatever fire and interests I have tend to fizzle after 3 minutes. Sometimes, I do wish that I can be like those with an all consuming passion for something, but alas, I am still who I am.
Recently, I went for a mission trip and have been richly blessed beyond my wildest imagination through it. I know that though we always go on mission trips to serve and bless the people, the Lord always seem to bless us more in return, so I was expecting to be blessed. However, how the Lord blessed me through this trip was totally through the roof! I am humbled and absolutely grateful. There is so much to share but for the purpose of this post, I shall limit to only one blessing. The rest may come in later posts.
And what would that one blessing be? Need I say more? Passion. Yes, the one thing which I thought I lacked and wanted. The Lord opened my eyes to see that I do have it. An all-consuming passion for His Person, for His glory, for His purpose. It truly consumes me.
I questioned repeatedly in the past that if I have such a passion, why then does it not seem to be sustained? It should be 24/7 and not ebbing up and down like a bouy at sea. Through this trip, the Lord opened my eyes to see that the passion for Him is there in the midst of all the ups and downs. Sure the 24/7 passion is wonderful and excellent, and cannot be mistaken for anything but the passion it is, yet, the "bouy at sea" passion can also be (thought not always) a passion, for if in the troughs, the heart still longs for the all-consuming fiery passion that manifests in the crests, is that not proof that the desire for passion is but the passion itself?
I thirst for God, I hunger for God, I yearn for God, yet I feel and think and know that I don't thirst and hunger and yearn for God enough as I should, but I want to! I thirst to thirst for God, I hunger to hunger for God, I yearn to yearn for God! The fire is there and it hungers for more. That is passion! And I do burn with it. O how I desire to be fully sold out for Jesus! No holds barred, no holding back. One life to live for His one glory!
This is the passion that burns within, and though it may not manifest 24/7 externally, the desire to desire more of the desire is clear proof that the passion burns brightly within and is continually transforming me and manifesting itself. It is a journey, an exciting one and I am very much work in progress.
I thirt to thirst for more of my God, I hunger to hunger for more of my God, I yearn to yearn for more of my God. To be filled and satisfied and yet never fully filled and never fully satisfied, always desiring more! What a joy, what a privilege. This is the life to live! =)
And for those who ask where does this passion come from or how it can be obtained or increased, there is only one answer. God. God is the giver of the passion for Himself. There is no other source or other way, for by Him, through Him and in Him were all things created (refer to Colossians 1:16), and that includes the passion for Himself.
Praise the Lord! =)
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